Tuesday, September 30, 2014

Divergent Trilogy Review

My first ever book review in 21 years of my life. Here it goes:

There are ample of things and situations that I can relate to Divergent's values and beliefs. There's forgiveness after betrayal, love after hatred, trust after doubt; basically it's a whole package of life stories and values.

But the one thing that impacted me the most was the ending of the story. (Spoiler alert!) I've spent many nights reading all the books, skipping meals and sleeps, and it boils down to......Tris being killed. YES. She died in the end. I was devastated and confused and angry. Why must she die? Tobias and Tris deserve the "happily ever after" ending just like Hunger Games. Actually, they deserve it more, I believe.

After crying for a whole 5 minutes while struggling to finish the remaining pages of the book from Tobias's story (in which I cried even harder). I couldn't bare it. I went on to the internet and search "why must tris die?". Lo and behold, I found an interview with Veronica Roth, the author of Divergent trilogy, explaining the meaning of the ending. (read it here)

This is the turning point of everything I have understood about dying. Veronica said that Tris had to die because she finally learns what it actually means to sacrifice herself. She didn't die in the water tank, she didn't die while she hands herself over to Erudite HQ and after all that has happened, the death of her parents and Will, betrayal from Caleb; she no longer wants to die because of the pain and guilt she has felt. But she now knows what does true sacrifice means, it's sacrificing your own life to save a whole population from being killed (in this context it means erasing everyone's memory. Read the book and you'll know what I'm talking about).

I knew that something was gonna go south when Tris tells Christina that she will always be there for her. And when Tris tells Tobias that they will have a new life together once the mission is completed.

Little did I know, she was already gone.

Many time we do things because we feel that if we don't do it, the regret that comes after it will eat us up and there will be a hole in us). What I'm trying to say is that death is not a simple decision. And life is not to be taken for granted.

The last words that Tris spoke to Tobias through Caleb was "If I don't make it, tell Tobias I didn't want to leave him".

I mourned for days. I would wake up and think about the meaning of death. It haunted me so badly I couldn't read a new book so soon. It's like I needed to recover from a bad break up. A week later, I know that I need to stop thinking about it and start to live my life again but with a new vision.

My favorite line from this trilogy series : "Be brave." 

Jean x

Tuesday, October 15, 2013


Hi guys

I don't know where to start ._.

Okay. I have a big commitment issue in keeping my blog updated. I realize that blogging has been a long gone era though some bloggers are still doing it (really good for them!). People are starting to move away from reading to watching videos on YouTube. I don't know. There's just so many things happening on YouTube nowadays that that art of writing is simply becoming nothing. On the other hand, the art of creating YouTube videos has been going strong and people are asking for more. But I'm pretty sure that this YouTube phase will eventually die down and something new will come for the people to crave for it. Humans beings are never easy to be pleased huh..

Thursday, January 10, 2013


Seems like I have not written for a year! Unbelievable...

Gone were the days where I used to blog thrice a week. I can't believe how fast time have flew! WELL, I'm no longer a fashion student but I'm pursuing Broadcasting in IACT College right now. I'll be the one who works behind the scene during a production shoot :D 

I'm currently working with Reanimated Studio (founded by Gordon Ling) on a very exciting project with Harith Iskander!

I hope I could write more but this will do for now. 2013 is gonna be an exciting year for me and I can't wait for future opportunities to come! 


Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Where Should I Start?

It has been a long journey. A journey that I couldn't believe I made it through alive..but I'm barely breathing. Looking back at what I have accomplish in these 11 months is beyond my expectation. I have come so far from where I have started! Met some incredibly amazing people, learned so much from great leaderships, stumble and fall along the way, reconcile with God again and again... After all these, I still question myself this : Am I living the life of a godly person? Or am I still worldly?

Yes, I made some mistakes and hurt some people. But I'm not perfect. Well, I try to be.. I work hard and push my limits (physically and mentally). It is the expectation that people have set on me that has hurt them. Because they didn't expect the mistakes coming from me. I'm always the "can-do" and "perfectionist" girl. Agree?

However, I know I still have a longer and wider bridge to build and cross over but it takes time and sacrifices along the way..

Am I ready for that? To be stretch by God?

Thursday, September 29, 2011


"You're in depression"
"It's just a fling gone wrong"
"Ain't worth your tears"
"Everything's gonna be fine"
"I understand.."
"Be stronger"
"Only God can heal you"
"Don't skip dinner"

Saturday, September 17, 2011


Eureka moment comes when my mind is totally exhausted but I just can't sleep yet. This is incredible. Mentally and physically drained out from serving God and now He decides to plant a vision in me at 2:27AM. Outrageous but if I slept, the passion and desire to chase that vision will no longer be with me..

The following weeks and months are going to be greater! Lord, please be with me..

Thursday, August 18, 2011


Life is too short to be spent alone. I've just finish watching Ghosts of Girlfriends Past (random). The fear and horror of living a lonely life is unbearable for any human being.

Lately, I have missed talking to God. Miss singing to His songs in the car while I'm stuck in the bad traffic. How is it possible to be so busy with church work til there is no time for Him? I mean, I'm doing God's work but I can't even spend quality time with Him? It's insane. It's like saying I'm having dinner with my family but we're not even communicating. They're just there..

I guess this is the phase where I get too caught up with real life situation and I've placed Him somehow less important. Human beings will always be that way. Imperfectly perfect in God's eyes yet He still loves us. It's just like you, loving your partner even though they made a mistake/hurt you. Because *you* love them enough to forgive them. Life is a journey, not a destination.

We all want to have that special someone to walk with in our lives journeys. Someone that loves us for our good and our bad. Someone that doesn't beat us down but encourages us. Someone that loves Jesus and loves God. Someone who you could not possibly imaging living without him/her. Someone who can instantly make you smile just by the thought of him/her. Someone that shares the same vision and goal with you :)

Eternity is where I want to be.

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